So I recently read his short article about something called post traumatic church syndrome,
http://www.patheos.com/blogs/faithforward/2014/03/its-called-post-traumatic-church-syndrome-and-yes-its-real/ , and it kind of threw me for a loop. For years before, during, and after leaving the church I suffered nightmares, sleep walking, constant stomach issues, nausea, etc. I went to lots of doctors and no one could figure what was causing my physical symptoms... I went to a therapist for a while and did some pretty intensive therapy and got better, but now I wonder if my symptoms could have been ptcs. I've heard of others diagnosed it's post traumatic stress disorder but never really thought much about it.... I still have extreme fear of church and Christian music makes me feel anxious, but I have a desire to go back to a church of some kind... idk, just putting this out there!