Regarding deprogramming -
No wonder some in Solid Rock did not want me to go back to Ohio State in the late 70's! It was at OSU, that a history prof. brought a book to my attention which played a HUGE PART IN MY DEPROGRAMMING!
If you are struggling with being outside God's perfect will, and living only in the shadow of God's permissive will (you know, the part of God's will that prevents you from being severely spanked...) read ERIC HOFFER'S "THE TRUE BELIEVER - THOUGHTS ON THE NATURE OF MASS MOVEMENTS."
The kids (ELDERS?

) who led Solid Rock in the 70's can be easily understood because of this book.