Hi everyone, I am Captain Bible
I think Gcx is what happens when eager young men take the bible read it and do what it says.
Jim McCotter is simply a man who wanted to repeat the past in a grand experiment. He said “lets do it all over again, lets disregard all these years of church history and start a new movement.”
He rode a tide of christian re-organization called Fundamentalism. In the end he is just a poor business man.
Frankly, I think the church of Jesus Christ of later day saints has done a much better job at saving the world than Gcx will ever hope to do. (What a preposterous goal, Save the whole world!)
Still I don't have any fish left to fry, no axes to grind. I have met genuine friends in the church, I have met shallow friends in church, that's life. I have had abuse and great acts of love and friendship in church. I have learned from them both.
I think I come to this site for balance. My whole life I have had the world painted for me by the disciples of the new movement. That is how I have been introduced to the world, it is the base line and always will be my starting point. I don't have a problem with that.
I come here because I like to look at my past. I was just a part of a Christianity re-imagined, and am now a believer who has lost his faith and looks back with both fondness and with pain.
I was told that you had to die. In a way I have.
They said I should lose my dreams and exchange for Gods dreams.
But more and more I try to go back to find my old dreams: they are beautiful sunlit plains mostly under a wide open sky. No God pleasing goals of salvation I'm afraid. Maybe I am finally lost now.
Happily lost. I don't know for certain and I have never been more thrilled about it. Now God is real like never before.
Before all of this happened, Before the endless hours of teaching and bible study. Before I worked for hours and hours to be worthy of the church. Before I learned all the right words for prayer and spouted the teachings of the elders. Before I had learned everything that they could teach me: There was no guilt or shame. No lies. Just childhood dreams.
This is my problem: I believe that I have been robbed of something I once knew as a child. I only wish I could remember what it was.
I am here because Gcx is part of my life as it is part of all of our lives.
I am writing because it is helpful for me, that is all.
My voice is just a human voice, nothing special.
I just need to tell the world what I think. Like we all do.
Like Jim did.
And he did it, he reached his generation! That is how he spent his life. Good for him, now we get to pick up the pieces.
